Monday, July 14, 2014

Creating Wellness, Unit 9 - Le Project



       I.            The Importance of Psychological, Spiritual, and Physical Development

An effective professional in any field is one who maintains a sound mind and a sound body, simultaneously.  When you integrate the notion of also maintaining a sound spirit in addition to these other two domains, you attain an untouchability that makes you impervious to failure, and where your successes will only continue to uplift you.  In some cases, the foregoing spirit will uplift those around you and your empowerment will manifest self-empowerment in others.  Also, we must understand the processes that we must take to make ourselves well in the physical, psychological and spiritual aspects of living in order to be able to analyze and credibly advise others on how to achieve the same kinds of wellness.  As professionals, we must also gain an advanced knowledge of how these three domains interact to influence one another.  Personally, I have several areas that I need to work on in order to achieve wellness in the three domains.  First and foremost, I need to work on strengthening my mental discipline.  Although I consider myself to be a very mentally disciplined person, I have not realized the necessity for its consistence in my daily life.  I can bring myself to be disciplined but only about select things, and with other things I simply lack self-control or commitment.  I hope that in time, as I continue practicing consciousness and witnessing my thought processes as they come and go, I will be able to honestly re-evaluate my values and principles and then acquire values and principles that make me try harder to be a complete person whose every action is enacted on the basis of general oneness and union.  As of now, finding this stable ground upon which I can re-evaluate these things is a struggle, and I often think that maybe I would benefit most if I had some sort of life-coach to help me develop these personalized convictions that will eventually lead me to a healthier and more positive way of life.


    II.            Assessing the Domains of Health

Every day of living is an assessment of my psychological, physical, and spiritual health.  I’m oftentimes self-conscious, and more often than not it is a self-deprecating consciousness that makes me tip-toe around becoming too comfortable, and so I live in my head but I do not feel as though I live in the world.  When it comes to assessing psychological health, I find it difficult to measure because it is all subjective and dependent upon what one person considers to constitute their own wellness.  There are certain questions that I can ask myself to assess – in my current mental state – how well I am living up to my own social and emotional needs, how positively or negatively I perceive myself, and how well I am living up to my perception of happiness.  If I had to consider what would constitute positive psychological health for me, I would relate that state of being to a feeling of contentment with the conditions of my life and with the people in it.  To measure my psychological health, I would ask myself things like:
a)      Who is causing me to feel this way?
b)      What would best describe my emotional state in this moment?
c)      Where did this feeling come from?  Was it a product of your external environment or manifested from within?
d)      Why do I feel this way?
e)      Is this feeling something I chose and can change?
f)       How can I change this feeling into something positive?
There are many other questions that one could ask themselves to address psychological health, and another big factor to consider in assessing psychological health is what’s going into the body that could also be negatively affecting the mind.  If I had to score my psychological health on a scale of 1 to 10, I would give it a 6.
When assessing physical health, one thing to be consulted is the national averages for various weight and height comparisons, as well as one’s own nutritional practices.  If I had to score my own physical health on a scale of 1 through 10, I would give myself a 4.
Finally, to score my spiritual health, I would likely give myself a 7 or 8.  To measure it, I guess I would have to ask myself just how connected I am to the deeper part of my own consciousness, one that is able to slightly grasp onto the unconscious state of mind where I am able to make sense of my higher purpose and of the course my life has taken up until this moment.  I read tarot cards and they reflect and articulate the phases I go through and offer me some clarity on how my state of mind influences me one way or another.  Without telling me exactly what I need to do, tarot cards advise me on how situations come to pass and I can either go with the flow or fight against it, and in doing so encourages me to confront the realities of life that are not so easy to see or face.  I also study astrology on occasion and create charts for other people, and analyze my own chart to gain an articulate sense of identity so that I don’t simply feel as though I am the way I am for no reason, because I have come to believe that all people have come to be who they are for a predestined reason beyond average human comprehension, that there is a greater pattern for all things to exist as they are because destiny has deemed it to be so.  Sometimes I feel as though I am a waste of space, that I was put here without purpose, that I will be forever isolated behind this mental wall I’ve built so that no one can come in and see me at my most vulnerable.  Time, nature, and astrology have combined to help me realize that so long as I always do my best, I will achieve my true purpose, and that the person I am today is this person in this moment for a reason.


 III.            Developing Goals in the 3 Domains of Health

When I consider how I would develop goals in the area of spiritual health, I would first have to address that my spiritual connection is lacking and determine how to reestablish it.  I have been praying more, not a lot but praying at all is more than I have been doing for a long time.  I need to figure out what it is I believe in, what makes sense to me and ignites my spirit.  I used to have a strong grasp on these things, but life changes and gradually this took a toll on my perception of my purpose, and what higher power is calling out to me.  Sometimes when I read tarot I feel that faint connection with the Higher power that wants to guide me, wants to see me make the most of my life and my time.  So my goal in this area of living is to become more wholly involved in my own life, to make things happen when change is needed, and to understand myself as well as the nature of the world to know where I fit best.  I want to feel connected with my true essence and my purpose, and live a comfortable and confident and fulfilling life  I also want to be inspired everyday, inspired to do something or create something beautiful, inspired to concretize my dreams without losing momentum, which is where physical and psychological health work in conjunction with my spiritual awareness.
Considering my physical health, I have been making a point to exercise a little each day, and to stop being so sluggish and unmotivated no matter how I may be feeling.  So long as I get some activity in, at least I know that I am not regressing, even if my progress stagnates – at least it tells me that I need to do a little more, which is better than being comfortable doing nothing and getting physically more out of shape.  So as of now, my goals are to reach my target weight and eventually be fit and flexible enough to do those bendy yoga exercises that people have been taking pictures of themselves doing a lot lately.
Ah, and for the most fragile state of being, the psychological aspect of existence…  I have a few goals for this department, one of them to be mindful of when and how often I let negativity in, as well as being mindful of pushing those thoughts aside as they arrive and moving on to the next thing – I want to no longer be a slave to negative mental grip.  I also want to be more confident in myself, and be less flighty and stick to plans and be a more respectable person, instead of being viewed as a naïve young dumb girl with her head in the clouds.  I want to feel positive about myself no matter what I am doing, and I don’t want to subject myself to the negativity brought on by the world outside. I would also like to work harder to.  Those are my main goals for now.


  IV.            Strategies for Fostering Psychological, Spiritual, and Physical Health

Some of the meditative practices we learned throughout this class are being slowly but surely integrated into my daily/weekly routine.  For instance, on days of high stress or when I feel anxious, I utilize the subtle-mind practice when I need to refocus and stay on task.  I also use the loving-kindness practice which allows for me feel a renewed sense of patience and compassion for people who are not as patient or kind to me, and I consider for a moment that in their own lives, perhaps they are suffering and that is why they are so high-strung and potentially rude.  I just remember that quote by Plato: “Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.”  I have also integrated the use of mantras to help keep anxiety at bay and reaffirm my state of comfort by reminding myself that I have as much right to be where I am as anybody else, and by also reciting the mantra “Not everybody is going to like you” so that I need not be a slave to other’s expectations and possible slander.  As I slowly build upon a daily fitness routine, I feel more somewhat more confident and satisfied with my appearance, though there is still a lot that I am working towards.  I have established better nutrition, although it is still difficult to completely give up some vices.  At least not I am keeping track of my caloric intake and being mindful of just how much I take in on a daily basis.


     V.            Assessing One’s Commitment to the Cause
 
I am beginning to realize my commitment to the cause, and know that these practices will make me a stronger and more positive person who can really be attuned to my environment without my perceptions being muddled by unnecessary variables that encourage me to suffer and remain unclear.  Right now I am halfway to where I want to be, and I have not given up.  I will continue to do what I am doing, and slowly do more.  In order to change certain things in my life, I cannot always be so calculating and assess the risk of doing things because ultimately I wind up talking/thinking myself out of doing them.  This can be said of my inability to drive.  It’s embarrassing, but I cannot accomplish many of the things I want to in life without first honing this skill, and I will also never be able to accomplish the independence that I dream of having because I will have to rely on the service of someone else.  I’m building my way up to a more confident me who knows I am capable of doing things, who will no longer expect perfection but will be realistic about achieving goals without being my biggest critic and trying to impress people who don’t really know me nor have bothered to try.  I am committing to being the best ‘me’ I can be, and integral health will be a huge part in realizing this goal – so long as I keep going forward and never backward, I’m achieving my current goal of becoming better.

Monday, July 7, 2014

Unit 8 blog, Methods that seem to work for me

Hello everyone!  This week we are being asked to review and consider the methods we have learned about in the wellness class and choose which 2 work for us the most.  I have to say that the most recently practiced method of Visualization was very effective, and it reawakened my inner dreamer.  Before my inner dreamer fell asleep, I was wandering aimlessly through life trying to find my purpose, and then one day I realized what it was that I truly wanted to do, and that was to become a school counselor.  I envisioned myself as this strong effective woman, persistently working with children to make themselves realize their own effectiveness in the world, making them see that they can make a big difference in how the world will continue to change.  Anyway, I digress and will save the elaboration of my life's dreams and goals for another blog.

When I practiced the Visualization exercise, we were asked to close our eyes and first imagine a time when we experienced great happiness.  Then we were asked to imagine a time we experienced a sense of wholeness.  Finally we were asked to imagine a time in which we experienced "exuberant vitality, radiant health, and well-being" (Dacher, p. 145, 2006). Once we envisioned each of these moments and everything about them in terms of sensations (sight, taste, smell, touch and sound), we were asked to pretty much mash the inner and outer sensations of each of these moments together into one big ball of exhilarating, meaningful, joyous ball of profound experience.  If you were able to achieve that, you were subject to experience possibly one of the most remarkable and liberating feelings of bliss gratitude you may ever feel in your life time.  I've never used the drug ecstasy but I imagine that this overwhelming feeling is similar to that, where everything is so clear and everything about your life's path up until this point just makes sense.  I might get points taken off for language but I have to say that the power of the human mind is pretty damn amazing.

As far as the other "weapon of choice" goes, I would have to say that the loving-kindness and subtle mind practices tie for second.  Nothing trumps the visualization of the inner sanctum when it comes to conjuring up feelings up peace and warmth and light, and there are so many elements that you can add or take away from your archive of experiences to personalize it.  I did appreciate the loving-kindness exercise a lot though, because it helped me to remove my general dissatisfaction with the attitude of humanity and see that although some people act unrelentingly miserable and appear unbearable to be around, when you look past that negativity they surround themselves with all they are looking for is the same thing that I am, and that is love, kindness, happiness, health, and a feeling of wholeness through which they can connect with others.  Even those people have things on the inside that they wish to protect, and that is what I believe to be the reason they become cold and decide to shroud themselves in unwelcoming or combative energy, to protect their souls from being vulnerable to positive expectations that may not be met.

The subtle mind exercise was also very useful to me, and has been since I utilized it as instructed for the first time.  The human mind is very strong, but also very fragile as it is affected by so many external factors.  This fragility is subtle in that it is a choice we were never made aware of until we first utilized this practice and realized how much we allowed our reactions and responses to be dictated by things that are often inevitable and beyond our control.  This exercise teaches us to "gently" push these incoming negative thoughts and reactions aside so that they may pass as quickly as they arrive.  It has taught me that emotions are an inevitability, but how we respond to them is a choice.  Even if we feel impulsive to react to something that we have deemed painful or stressful, we make a choice to grasp onto specific aspects of our lives and rebel against them instead of choosing to accept the natural dynamic flow of both negative and positive happenstance in our lives.

These practices foster mental fitness because they broaden our perspective from the life we see right now in front of us to the life we are willing to work hard to have.  We are no longer stuck in a single moment, but rather immersed into a series of moments that contain opportunities for us to gradually work our way to a more profound life by strengthening our mental faculties and discarding all from our minds that hinders our progress towards that expansive goal containing happiness, clarity & meaning, love and communion with all that is around us.  In times of stress at work or at home, we can get flustered and rebel against the challenges we are faced with when the odds seem to be against us, and succumb to that pressure.  Or, we can deem these challenges as opportunities to push past what we deem as being impossible surpass, and become stronger, confident, self-assured human beings who are capable of an infinite number of things so long as we continue to expand ourselves.  Even when we try hard at something and fail to meet our own expectations, the fact that we are bold enough to try in the first place was a challenge converted into an opportunity that would have otherwise been wasted, and we can now use that as a reference point from which we can practice strengthening ourselves even further.

And that, as they say, is that.